homesickness and stress is not a good combo

I'm writing this as I sit in MacRobert's getting funny looks from girls at other tables because I am crying because I miss my home. One thing that most of these people will never experience is having to be away from home for such a long period of time. I am so glad and thankful that I had this opportunity to do this and that I actually did it. I thought it would be easier having Trey here, but it's only seemed to make it harder. I thought it would be nice to have my best friend around, but it's proved to be even more difficult than it has been worth. It was nice having a travel buddy and to have someone to share these experiences with, but I don't enjoy having to miss home and have the one thing that can help me not miss home so much refuse to be there. This is probably going to be a jumbled mess, but oh well, I need to get my feelings out somewhere. I can't wait to go home because that means I will finally have trey back and he won't feel the need to act like an immature child and we can have a summer together without people stopping it. I can finally be with my friends and it will be so nice to see them. It will be sunny and warm and sunny and warm and more sun and more warmth and i can go swimming. I just want my best friend. I want someone to be there for me and be willing to put something else behind for a second and realize that if they love someone they need to be there. i want my best friend and i want him now.

i honestly cannot wait to go home. it'll be the happiest day of my life.